Without the worries of school and the pressures of life I've stopped cutting :). Sometimes I scratch and yesterday the marks wouldn't go and I had to wear a long sleeve t-shirt in eighty degree weather! Then I had a relapse of sadness and spent the night cuddled up crying and eating icing contemplating life.
Anyway starting to restrict, I think I want to be a vegetarian so that will give me lots of excuses to not eat whatever is being served. Plus I have always wanted to be a vegetarian but when I was younger needed the protein to grow :(. Anyway I'm designing a new fasting plan but can't really get any good ideas going! You guys have any nice fasting routines because I am not good at just fasting than not... I think I will make sure I fast during the weekdays to avoid people noticing on the weekend. The only severely bitter thing is that next week I am going to DC with friends and will be surrounded 24/7! We also got some stupid meal deal thing so I will have boxed breakfast, lunches, and dinner to eat... :(
Still I am so happy exams are over because i was eating a LOT! 1000+ calories a day to make sure I could survive the severely challenging exams.
Still I need lettuce! The only fruits I have in the house are smoothy packets(only 80 calories!) and frozen peas. I need my dressing-less salads and piles of apples sprinkled with little bits of cinnamon! I also need to find a bigger water bottle! Seriously how are you supposed to walk 10 feet with those little ones they sell now!
On top of those things I want to plan out a simple summer of pounding out all the things I need to do then just chilling with my friends!
Anyway have to go pick up my little sis :)
Stay strong. Stay skinny.
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