Total loss of Control and Salt Water Flush

I wish I had that control!

I totally lost all control yesterday afternoon. I ate a little under 1000 calories worth in JUNK! It started with a peach(not junk I know) then suddenly I was reaching for the container of icing in my fridge and taking spoonfuls until it was GONE! Damn I though I was doing so well! Today I have a family birthday party at a greasy Mexican restaurant. I think I will vomit. All I have had today is a peach and I don't think I'll have anything else except LOTS of working out! Even if I avoid the mass amounts of chips they set on the table I will still have to have dinner. My plan is that since I'm now a vegetarian I can avoid all meat! That leaves me with... well all I can think of is a quesadilla. Maybe they will have a salad but I doubt it. So I think I will have a quesadilla but then I'll dab off the grease and let my cousin eat several slice then throw some away in the bathroom. Then I will nibble on the end of one and it will look like I ate an 3/4 of the quesadilla!

Still I can't believe I caved! I am so fat now. I can almost see the icing hanging on my thighs. I need to work out!

I'll probably not be blogging for a week because I'm heading out tomorrow morning VERY early! Still I need to do better!

I'm currently sitting with about 1/2 a litter of salt water in my stomach... eeeek. I now know what they mean when they say salt water tastes awful! Every sip I thought I was going to vomit back up. It was bitter and had an awful aftertaste!

Anyway we'll see how that works! Also when I googled salt water flush for an image I saw a pic of someone drinking the salt water and SMILING! Not realistic I am still frowning from the taste!!

Stay strong unlike me, stay skinny.