Today in a Nutshell

Today I worked out for 3 hours and a fifteen minute bike ride!! I have eaten an apple, and two apricots along with a scoop of ice cream. I am sore to no end and can barely raise my shoulders above my head! Anyway I'm tired but check this out: http://shine.yahoo.com/channel/health/dr-oz-on-how-to-spot-an-eating-disorder-in-teens-2499456/

Make sure you stay secretive!!!

Stay Strong. Stay Skinny.

Saw this on A This Journey's website! I love it!

Baby Showers :(

So I was doing great I ate a small dinner yesterday because I'm having a week of LOTS of basketball and other than that I hadn't eaten anything other than half an apple today just so I have calories to burn in basketball. Then I went to my aunts baby shower and to say it was a lunch-in was as understatement it was a lunch massive eat hall!!! So I had fruit and bread but I felt bad because I left all the meat on my plate because I didn't want to be rude and say I'm a vegetarian..... still to many calories!!!!!!! Ahhhhhhhh

Anyway I'll post long later...

I'm back!

Back from DC!!! So much fun and my feet still burn from the miles of walking we did from morning till way after the dark! Anyway I've lost some weight from the walking but I feel its not happening fast enough. I want to fast but I have some basketball clinics that are really pivotal to get on a good high school team so I'm going to go hard core on the vegetables to get all the nutrients I need.

I've started working out but sadly my back has begun to fail on me! I'm still a teen! I should not get back problems this young! AHHHHH! Anyway I think today I'll eat strawberries and jello! I also need to go shopping for some soda with 0 calories.... cause I'm sick of water!

Glad to be back!!

Stay Strong. Stay Skinny.

Zeri Calorie Foods!

I have yet again reshaped my dieting plan. Instead of cutting off food and only eating jello I think I wil just eat zero calorie foods. When researching it I figured out that some foods take more calories to digest than they do to eat! Meaning that when you eat them you are actually burning calories! The list I found(and please correct me if I am wrong) is HUGE! Here it is:

Asparagus, apple, beet, blueberries, broccoli, cranberry, cantaloupe, carrot, celery, chicory, cauliflower, cucumber, dandelion, endive, garden cress, garlic, grapefruit, green bean, honeydew, hot chili peppers, lemon, lime, lettuce, mango, onion, orange, papaya, peach, pineapple, radish, raspberries, spinach, strawberries, tomato, tangerine, turnip, watermelon, and zucchini. List found here.

This doesn't mean that a strawberry is 0 calories it means that after eating it and digesting it you burn more calories than you do when you eat it!

This gives me good news for DC cause I will know what to eat and what to avoid!

Total loss of Control and Salt Water Flush

I wish I had that control!

I totally lost all control yesterday afternoon. I ate a little under 1000 calories worth in JUNK! It started with a peach(not junk I know) then suddenly I was reaching for the container of icing in my fridge and taking spoonfuls until it was GONE! Damn I though I was doing so well! Today I have a family birthday party at a greasy Mexican restaurant. I think I will vomit. All I have had today is a peach and I don't think I'll have anything else except LOTS of working out! Even if I avoid the mass amounts of chips they set on the table I will still have to have dinner. My plan is that since I'm now a vegetarian I can avoid all meat! That leaves me with... well all I can think of is a quesadilla. Maybe they will have a salad but I doubt it. So I think I will have a quesadilla but then I'll dab off the grease and let my cousin eat several slice then throw some away in the bathroom. Then I will nibble on the end of one and it will look like I ate an 3/4 of the quesadilla!

Still I can't believe I caved! I am so fat now. I can almost see the icing hanging on my thighs. I need to work out!

I'll probably not be blogging for a week because I'm heading out tomorrow morning VERY early! Still I need to do better!

I'm currently sitting with about 1/2 a litter of salt water in my stomach... eeeek. I now know what they mean when they say salt water tastes awful! Every sip I thought I was going to vomit back up. It was bitter and had an awful aftertaste!

Anyway we'll see how that works! Also when I googled salt water flush for an image I saw a pic of someone drinking the salt water and SMILING! Not realistic I am still frowning from the taste!!

Stay strong unlike me, stay skinny.

Sugar Free Jello :)

I have done great! All I've eaten since yesterday is one apple, one peach, lots of water, and the best invention I have ever heard of: sugar free/low-cal jello! At only 10(yes I said ten that is not a typo) calories each serving! I have already eaten 20 calories worth of it and the other 20 is waiting downstairs for me to eat when I get hungry.

(I had Lemon... but couldn't find a pic)

Not sure what I have planned tonight but I think I will be able to get out of dinner like I did last night. (We were going to a school function for me so my parents went out for Chinese while I stayed home to do my hair). Feeling great. I'm thinking of going biking soon but the weather is a bit cloudy so I'm playing it safe and just doing housework, which is not all that fun but still!

Anyway just an update! I think I've found the best eating plane ever:

Day 1- 1 Jello packet(40 calories) and water
Day 2- 400 calories
Day 3- 1 Jello packet(40 calories) and water
Day 4- 1 Jello packet(40 calories) and water
Day 5- 300 calories
Day 6- water fast
Day 7- 1 Jello packet(40 calories) and water
Day 8- water fast
Day 9- 200 calories
Day 10- water fast
Day 11- .5 Jello packet(20 calories) and water
Day 12- water fast
Day 13- 100 calories

Day-14-water fast

That means over the course of two weeks I would only consume 1180 calories! Of course many days I would have to work out and some of the days I may have to break the pattern because of family/friends.


Still I think I may do this when I get back from DC!

What a great idea!

Surfing the internet and just found the SGD(Skinny Girl Diet) and it is so perfect. Look at this I can't do it because I am going to be on vacation next week with a friend who will be watching closely but still look!:

Today in a Nutshell and some thinspiration!

I have only eaten half a piece of pepperoni pizza(125 calories!!) and I think for dinner I will have a smoothy(80 calories)... oh yeah and gum :)(5 calories).

I can't work out today because I have to attend a graduation tonight but I will get some sort of activity in!

I'm still so embarrassed about my weight but in a couple weeks I love to put up my weight stats! I'm 5'11''(yes I am a giant) and I want to get down to about 140-145 this summer. For my frame I'm not sure if thats possible but I really want to get down to 130 in the next couple months!

Anyway now that I've said all that has happened here is some of my favorite thinspiration!

And just remember:

Stay Strong. Stay Skinny. <3

Summer...

Without the worries of school and the pressures of life I've stopped cutting :). Sometimes I scratch and yesterday the marks wouldn't go and I had to wear a long sleeve t-shirt in eighty degree weather! Then I had a relapse of sadness and spent the night cuddled up crying and eating icing contemplating life. 

Anyway starting to restrict, I think I want to be a vegetarian so that will give me lots of excuses to not eat whatever is being served. Plus I have always wanted to be a vegetarian but when I was younger needed the protein to grow :(. Anyway I'm designing a new fasting plan but can't really get any good ideas going! You guys have any nice fasting routines because I am not good at just fasting than not... I think I will make sure I fast during the weekdays to avoid people noticing on the weekend. The only severely bitter thing is that next week I am going to DC with friends and will be surrounded 24/7! We also got some stupid meal deal thing so I will have boxed breakfast, lunches, and dinner to eat... :(

Still I am so happy exams are over because i was eating a LOT! 1000+ calories a day to make sure I could survive the severely challenging exams.

Still I need lettuce! The only fruits I have in the house are smoothy packets(only 80 calories!) and frozen peas. I need my dressing-less salads and piles of apples sprinkled with little bits of cinnamon! I also need to find a bigger water bottle! Seriously how are you supposed to walk 10 feet with those little ones they sell now!

On top of those things I want to plan out a simple summer of pounding out all the things I need to do then just chilling with my friends!

Anyway have to go pick up my little sis :)

Stay strong. Stay skinny.